Excited.

I don't know why, maybe it comes with being an INTP type of person; but everything that I want to do needs to be well thought out and planned down to the very tiny minute details. Which probably explains why my 'not-a-bucket-list' list just keeps growing longer and longer each day. Sometimes it takes me days or even weeks to reach to a decision. *cough cough* like starting this blog. 

Even if or when I do make up my mind, I take another period of time just to plan it out in my head. Chances are that is the control-freak side of me coming out to play. So it is safe to say that I very rarely ever make a YOLO decision for a lack of better word.

Now, funnily enough, that was something I did about a week or two ago.

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I was randomly scrolling through Facebook while I was bored when I saw a picture that really caught my attention. My immediate reaction was to go 'OH MY GOSH THAT IS SO PRETTY'. And it has little to do with how the picture is so beautiful in its simplicity, but more of what the main focus of said image is.

Photo from my dearest friend, Bea.Eugenie

How can you not be taken by that picture?

After spotting the post and admired it for a good minute, I quickly messaged Beatrice demanding to know more about this workshop that she had attended over the weekend. Thankfully for me she understood my aesthetic and told me about it. So sweet of her to share their site where they announced that there would be another in the near future.

And, even their page is incredibly pretty to look at. *happy sighs* Must be the crisp white background and the header with the site title which I assumed might have been handwritten. Looks promising already, right?

From inksandletters

Currently Inks & Letters have two kinds of workshops for people to learn calligraphy. One being with a pointed pen which  creates that beautifully classy cursive lettering and another using  a brush & watercolour that is pretty in its own way. I mean just look at the preview of each of the workshop that are offered - that on its own is already so attractive that it's impossible to not sign up for it.

Those that are close to me will know that I have a love for anything vintage and classy. In short, I'm basically a sucker for old-fashioned themed things. My friend came back from her little holiday to Penang and got me postcards. Quite a few of them (which I picked for myself :3) with prints of product adverts from the 40's - 50's. Trust Leena to know that those were exactly what I liked.

Yes, I am an old soul and occasionally believe that I have been born in the wrong era. That is until I think of life without internet & Tumblr then it makes me sure that maybe I am a 90's child after all. *giggle snorts*

Also, despite the stereo-type where girls have really nice handwriting, mine is... Not at all. Even if it is a good representation of the person behind the pen - small and complicated. Maybe slightly temperamental too. I have met guys, several of them, who have seemingly effortless, nice looking handwriting which makes me very envious.

Oh, and I'm not very artistic either. Unfortunately what comes out on paper isn't the same as what I usually have pictured in my mind, even when it comes to writing, despite that being one of my better skill sets.

Here's to hoping that this workshop will help with my art skills, even if it is just a tiny bit! But even if that won't do much to help me become the next Van Gogh or Picasso, then at least it'll be a fun new experience.

'To practice any art, no matter how well or badly, 

is a way to make your soul grow. 
So do it.'

- Kurt Vonnegut, A Man Without a Country -

As of now, there's about a little over than two weeks, or maybe even less, before I can attend the workshop with Beatrice and I am beyond excited. ((=

Until next time, loves~

Life.

Alright, so first things first, this is a filler post of a sorts.

For starters, the intended blog post that is supposed to be posted instead of this rant is not done yet. Secondly, I'm stuck in a bit of a writing ditch.

Which is funny considering that my idea was to write down a list of things that could help me with getting out of writer's block. Yet, ironically, I am stuck in one.

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This happened about a week ago, maybe even more since I procrastinated with writing this post. Someone asked me about this blog of mine and what I was intending to write in it. Obviously my first reaction was to blank out for a couple of seconds before finally managing to form a sentence and my response to the question had been,

'Oh, it's going to be a lifestyle blog. So there can be things about fashion, beauty, food and all things in between'.

Taking into consideration how long it took me to even decide what I wanted to make of this page before and how easily it was for me to describe my blog so quickly - and you can imagine how pleased I was with myself at that very moment. My confidence was through the roof. However, it did not last very long because said person I was talking to said something that really struck a nerve.

'How can you write a lifestyle blog when nothing interesting is going on? Shouldn't you be living the life? People wouldn't covet nor want to read about anything when you don't have something interesting to offer. So at least go do something more substantial; just live a more interesting life.'

Wow. Just wow. Then just like that, everything goes from great to crap in the next second. It's ironic how it takes so much to build one's confidence and one small thing can ruin it all.

Though to be honest, I am not sure if that person meant what they said in a hurtful manner. Maybe to them it sounded like constructive criticism. And maybe I was cranky from a very frustrating week of work, hence I took offence at what was said. Mostly, what got to me is that, what they said was not all wrong.

What my life is like these days to most people is pretty normal, occasionally can even be considered as incredibly boring to some. Though, is it really?

Basically, every Monday to Friday, is work. After which I just head straight home and stay there, already too tired to deal with anything else for the day. Some times, very rarely, I will force myself to go to the gym or try to work out cause healthy is the new sexy. Then if my friend is free, maybe I'd have dinner with my best friend to catch up on our lives.

Other than that, there really isn't anything much eventful on weekdays on the regular. Then there's the weekend - which unfortunately is smaller in number than the amount of actual working days. So there isn't much that I'm motivated to do other than sleep. It is important to a sloth like myself.

Occasionally on either Saturdays or Sundays, there will be plans made with friends to spend the day out. Depending on the plans made, my friends and I would find somewhere nice to have a nice cup of coffee while we chatter away about everything and nothing.

Another funny thing that I just realized that we like to do is go on food hunting adventures & look for places that are really pretty for pictures. Usually these kind of days where I am out would always make me feel really happy and not at all tired even if I am out almost the entire day.

Personally, for an introvert like myself, the best thing to do is to just stay cooped up in my room with a good book and maybe binge watching my favorite TV series like Criminal Minds or Supernatural. This combination is really good for a weary soul after having to deal with people on a daily basis. And I'm shamelessly admitting that I love it!

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So yeah; my life can seem pretty mundane and not worth blogging about like some bloggers that I follow. Then again, not everyone's life is the same because we all do things differently and have different interests. Some people like sports and activities that involves stepping out of the house for a good chunk of their day, then there are some that likes to spend their time alone with their thoughts. Different but still good in their own ways.

Does that make one better than the other? I'll let you think about that on your own. Personally, I don't think so. There are things I may not agree with but it really isn't my business at all - everyone has their own prerogative and is allowed to live their lives the way they think is best for themselves. Even if everyone around them thinks otherwise.

Plus, people tend to forget that what is being posted online, whether it's Facebook, Instagram, daily vlogs and blogs are merely the highlights of a person's life. There will be ups and downs, but you only get to see what they want you to see which is usually the better parts of their lives. Why would anyone show you the bad parts? To get sympathy and attention? No.

Moral of this very long rant is: You do not have to answer to anybody but yourself. Tell these people to piss off and not stick their noses in business that is not theirs unless they mean well.

What's important is to live life fruitfully and as long as you're happy, then it is probably good enough. And if for me that means writing things that will almost never see the light of day and putting my little thoughts & adventures onto this blog, then so be it.

I guess my dear readers just have to see the world through my eyes while you're here.

Until the next time, darlings~

Get ready..... Go!

Hello bumblebees~ 

Well...... This is sort of an awkward start and what really bums me out is; I do not have anything fancy to use as an opening line. Though I really wish I had one so it can be a damn good start to this post and blog too. But alas, none comes to mind even with really nice music playing. So here, have a very lame and forced greeting. Even though I would have preferred to start this entry another way rather than just jumping to the point. Yes, I am fussy like that.

So it has been years since I last typed out a blog post, especially on this particular platform. Now being on it and attempting to start a blog of my own (once again) feels more than a little foreign to me. There's this feeling that's kinda exciting but scary at the same time, something that is very hard to put into words. At least for me.

Just imagine the excitement and uncertainty that comes when you swim in the ocean for the first time? Not just around the shallow area near the shores but farther out in the big body of water that makes you feel so much smaller than you already are. Refreshing, exciting and terrifying all at the same time. Making you feel as if you can go anywhere, do anything you want as long as you want to. Except, there are many terrors lurking below just waiting to pull you down.

The thought that I am finally going to write a blog again after abandoning my last one - which will never see the light of day now because it's just painful to even think of nonetheless look at, is kind of... Odd to say the least. Also sort of nostalgic.

To be honest, I don't know where to go with this post. What was initially planned to have been a real special entree to a new blog and yet, I am completely stuck at a crossroad with next to no muse because she's apparently fluttered off somewhere to have fun. Which leaves me with a post that looks rather lopsided and gets on my OCD-stricken nerves. But we all must start somewhere eventually and this is where it shall for me.

So, let's start with what is to be expected of the contents of this page and where it is headed.

On one hand I want to be focusing more something that I have always adored, which is make-up, fashion and/or food. Those however would require more than just time and research as most of those require lots of money, something that I do not have an endless supply of. Although those will be making an appearance every now & then, it certainly would not be the main attraction hence I could not exactly call this site a beauty and fashion blog. Heck, I can't even make this into a food porn blog, though I really want to because just think of all the yums... But not yet.

After all the twist and turns with no ending, I'm still back to my very first question; what can I categorize this page as without eventually drifting away from what I initially wanted to make of my blog? And where would it take me? I may be looking far too much into this, but it's better to look farther than what the horizon is offering. 

It had taken me days to finally decide on a label, even if that's not my favourite word, as well as many a panicked discussion with a few friends, before I finally came to a conclusion. Though this isn't exactly the ideal and most perfected choice that I've made, then again it isn't even one that warrants a ceremonial party but it is as good as it gets. Rather than pigeon-hole myself at the end of the day by giving myself only a specific genre which would make things more difficult for myself. 

Hence why I've finally decided that it would be safer to describe this page as a Lifestyle blog. At least I can still write make-up and fashion related things, food reviews and also other things. While my main concern at first was to write about the aforementioned few things. Also I am determined to put my knack for debate and build my journalism skills to hopefully someday land my dream job as a writer for a magazine. 

There will be an article or two every now and then about a topic that pique my interests in hopes that someday it'll lead me somewhere. It is quite a long shot and I know that, but I mean, hey, one can dream and should do something to chase said dream right? So here I am taking my first step to finally braving the storm and putting my writing out into the world. 

Until the next time, lovelies. Or shall I say until the next ramble? 

With love,